Don’t Cry

Heaven is a hospital

where we suffer in silence

faces pressed down patients

pillow talking after dark

and we whisper promises

we tell the truth

the doctors there

serve the sick rosewater

to wash their wounds

yes that’s where

I’ll find you

we’ll be laughing

bleeding

lying still

pressed against the plastic

we’ll be together forever

waiting for our next codeine pill

we’ll forget the world while

our blood pools and dries then revives…

The bandages are made from cotton and

the needles from steel

White linen..

and your soft face..

White roses stand in glass bottles

in every window sill..

Helium balloons tied

in a silk blue bow tie..

Ribbon on my wrist

where they left me bleeding

drowning deep in my madness

it’s a high point, feeling nothing

teetering on tippy toes

in my cotton gown..

I squeeze your hand

and in suspense

you feel for my waist..

There I find you acting

as my sole guardian,

the gentle handler in charge of

my frozen heart,

tending to the blood,

sweat, and the rot..

In the evening

at my bedside

turn off the candles

lean into the metal cradle

move the hair from my face

kiss me good night

kissing your hands

tied inside delicate lace

I’ll float to outer space

and sink into golden sand..

Separated (Your Black Princess)

Separated —-

I still remember the feeling

and your voice

at the center flinching

in the middle

of your telescopic lens

cross hairs

pierce into me

have you forgotten?

Didn’t you say

Don’t be shy in front of me,

and,

it’s yours

and . . . .

from under

your smoldering eyes

and heavy body

little drops

didn’t you

poison me

and then

put me on top . . ?

I want to stay that way

sweet skin

burning

we kiss to kill the pain

I need you everyday . .

so waiting for your return

i won’t complain

i’ve waited this long

already…. trembling

mumbling your name

blindly insanity

i promised i’ll love you

as long as the winter is cold

you gave me freedom

so violently

left my heart choking

on empty light

lock me in, I’m devoted, floating

crown on my hair so

it’s your time to bleed

I go deep, dripping down my cheek

signed and sealed

the one in the silk dress

— your black princess